I was walking that day, my mind was full of many things; my family,my work, my husband and every little detail of my life. I decided to cross the street,but I really didn't care to look ....I was very occupied.... Then, it happened so quick, I didnt have the chance..It's was too late...........I fell on the ground so hard, half awake, half unconscious...I could hear people talking " is she alive, check her pulms!" " Call an ambulance!!Quickklyyyyyy"....My blood was flooding like a river,I was in great pain and I couldn't even cry.....At a sudden, all the voices faded away,but one.He came close to me and said" It's me, you're safe now. I'm your loyal friend and I'm here to help." I asked " who are you?" , he smiled weirdly and said " just a friend." I didn't hear anything else except the next day at the hospital, my family and friends were around all waiting my awaking. " She is awake, ooh, she is fine ,,Thank you God!" . "Where am I?" I asked, my mum looked at me and said " You're at the hospital, you were going to die, but thanks God, you are alive and safe...." I felt so dizzy,wasnt really knowing what was going around me " I wanna to see the doctor,plzz." My dad called the doctor and he came as soon as possible. " How are you now?" " I feel a bit dizzy and cant feel any part of my body, but I think I'm ok thx God." The doctor started checking on me and then looked at me not knowing how to start " I'm really sorry, but you wont be able to walk again.." I was shocked " no it cant be, you must be mistaken!!" " I'm sorry, but there's nothing we can do...." " Isnt there any cure, you cant leave me like that!!!!!" He looked at the floor and walked out silently... My mum tried to calm me down, but it was no use..." I wont walk again, I wont walk again!!! I wont be able to run ma, nor see the sun, nothing mama,nothing!!!!!!" My mum held me close and started crying , she really didnt know what to do, actually there was nothing to be done.Suddenly the same old voice came again " You see, what has happened?! You're a handicap! No one will help you, They will get fidup and they will all walk away. trust me,stay with me and you will win it all." I asked again " Who are yoooooooooooooou??!!!" and the same answer I heard. I decided to sleep, hoping that all was a dream, a bad one and it will pass. I had several nightmares; picturing myself running away , everyone wants to kill me!!! I wokeup scearming " Leave me aloneeeeeeeeee!! Go Away!!!!!" I cried so loud wishing nothing had had happened.... He returned again " You see, they all wanna kill you!! Look how they did you wrong through your life, they dont love you, they are no good to you!!!" I started to remember each and everyone one of them, as if it was a video of my life passing infront of me " do you remember your mother, look , she used always to beat you, tell you names, look, she even wished that one day you will die!!!!!" " Yes, you are right, she did manytimes,she doesnt want me, she is assure happy inside her heart from what happened to me!!!" Then I remembered my father " You little fool, do you think have a talent, you're useless creature!!!" " You see, he too think of you as useless, he will not help you, he will just push you away to get rid of you...." I cried so hard, " why they were doing that to me??!!!" Then I recalled my best friend at the last time we fought " How could you do this to me, you have lied to me, I will never ever forgive" " What you wanna me to do , you are selfish and dont think of anyone except yourself, you are a futile!! and she hung up.... " Oh dear, even your friend consider you a dreadful person, poor you...." I examined his features " Why you are doing this, you are making me remember, I got enough pain already..." " I am wanna assist you, to show you the reality of everyone around you.. They all hate you, they envy you and your life. they want you to be a loser...." " Please, leave me now , I am tired.." " No, I wont , we dont have much time.." " Time, what are u talking about?!!" " I mean, ( trembling) I must wake you to what's happening around you, I wont leave you till you know everyone's reality..I'm your friend and I must support you..." He then showed me, the most important person in my life...my husband..... " Do you remember, how manytimes you fought?! How manytimes he pushed you away with his harsh words, How he used to look at other girls while you were standing beside him??!! Do you recall??!!! Look , you see ..........." " What you want from me, I am tired and I dont feel like talking, Leave me alone, I wanna concentrate on the movie!!" " Oh my god, you are always nagging, crying, shouting to the kids, this is tooo much,if you kept on like that I will marry another woman!!!" " Ooooh mmyyyy God, she looks so beautiful, why you dont wear like her, or dress like her, i like this style so much, but wait a minute you dont have her looks or body, ammm it will be useless so forget it!!!!!" I started to frustrate, my hands strated shaking fiercely " Yes, he used to say all that!! How did I marry him, he didnt love me or accept me as I am!!! " OOOOOOh ,what a foolish I was" .... ( after some pause) " So, do you believe me now, tell me, who will stand beside you, support you, be there when you need him?...... noone except me....... hate them all, push them away, they are all evil!!!!!! Push them away!!!!!!Push them away!!!!!! I woke up the next morning angry,frustrated , dont wanna talk to anyone or do anything... I forgot my prayers and spend the whole day mouning on my luck and my life" I am here coz of them, if I wasnt thinking of anyone , I wouldnt have been here!!" " Gosh, I was really a fool, now I will spend all my life depending on people who hated me!!!!!!!!!!" My mum and dad knocked the door and came in " How are you today dear?!" I looked at them with an angry eye " I am fine, dont worry , I will be ok and I dont need anyone's help!!!!" " Ok, honey , calm down , we only want to check on you" " No, you just wanna make sure that your wish is fullfilled and now I hope you'r happy!!!!" They looked at eachother, they didnt understand why I was saying that and said" Ok, is this what you think of us?" " Yes, so go away. i dont need you!!!!!!" They were offended with my words and went away saying sadly " You' ll regret that one day....." I didnt understand how I will, I was very busy thinking of my condition and how they wished that for me someday..... Then my friends came to check on me " Sweety, you are alright!! We decided to get you your favourite cake and share it all, what you think?" " Thats nice, but no thanks. Why you came today , you too came to check that your competitive girl is on the ground and she will never be able to move again!! You came coz of your jeolousy and your envy to me, go away you too, i dont want any of you( and I throw the cake into thier face)!!!! " You're unbielivable!! How could you say that and we all left our house and work just to see you!!! We will go and believe us you will regret it someday!!!" They too as well left me alone to my saddness and anger... I then heard him again " Good, they deserve that!! All of them did , dont worry about what they said to you, they are just jeolous.." I said sighing " yes, it seems so....." I started to feel more in pain and my heart beat was getting so fast . I slept again thinking that maybe i'll get better by night ( which didnt happen).... I wokeup with a scream of pain, the doctors came running trying to help me out...They looked at eachother and I could barely hear them " It is no use, she is dying ..It's only a matter of hours, she is bleeding so hard.." I then saw my husband coming to see how I was doing and standing with the doctors to ask them on my condition. " Baby, You will be right, the doctor told me you will.." " yaaah, yaaah ofcourse I will. Dont you worry about that." " Baby, I am not worried. i only want to see you happy and safe" .... " No, you are a liar, you always wished to marry another person, you always criticized me , you were never happy with me!!! so dont you come now and play that foolish role on me, I wont believe you" .... " No, it is not true, i loved you or I wouldnt have married you.. You are just tired and not knowing what you are saying.." " so now I am crazy and I dont know what I am doing!! What else you see in me, tell me heh, what else?!!" .. " ok, you seemed not willing to listen or understand, I will leave you now to rest, may after a while you will come to your senses.." " yaah, just great , now I figured out that my husband is seeing me a mental woman!!!" He left the room inspite of knowing my death is near... As I unidentfied of my time of death, forgetting about my Lord and everything, just sleeping in anger wishing all of them will be hurt as I am, he appeared to me " well , well, you have done really a great job!! I am really proud of you.. Now, it is time to you to come with me..." " Where I am going??!!!!" " To a place where you will be safe with me forever?!!! Dont worry, just leave yourself to me.." My hear beat sarted to be fast, I couldnt take my breath " What are you doing to me??!" He blasted , " You're coming with me!" He couldnt stop laughing and I was dying.........Then all came quiet, I am dead... I could see myself sleeping on the bed and He is standing beside me, He grabed my hand fiercly and took me away.... " Where are you taking me? OOOOOOOOOOOOhhhhhh MMMMMMMmyyy God!!!!! What have I done to myself? Ohhhhhh, i wished I could gone back again, noooowwwww I lost it all..........................." The end This story is no near of my real life ofcourse, but I thought of writing it for its moral cause. We all at times of anger remember all the sad, mad, angry moments on our lives. We only can remember how this person has done wrong to us, how did he hurts us one day with his words or action.. We forget that God is wittnessing and hearing everything happening to us. We forget that one day we will die and meet Him. WE allow satan to destroy every happy moment in our lives and keep us away from God.We allow him to bring up our anger, hatered and detest to everything around us. Instead of really turning to God, asking His help and wisdom , we start to search for all the reasons to blow the fire more. At the end we loose our most important people in our lives and most important we loose God........ So, remember before really starting a fight or envolving into one, God is watching and Satan is waiting for you to get it wrong......So, choose which way you wanna go .........
